thegrrrl2002: (Angsty Rodney #2)
thegrrrl2002 ([personal profile] thegrrrl2002) wrote2006-09-25 08:26 pm

Birthday Girl!!

Happy Birthday to [livejournal.com profile] rivier! A few days late, that is. But hey, I always go by the "Birthday Week" rule (or even sometimes, "Birthday Month"). So I'm not late yet! ::hugs::

In honor of this auspicious occasion, I wrote a little fic. It's a missing scene from "Conversion".

This fic has a mild warning--scroll down to the end to read it if you wish.



Corruption

***

Rodney almost walks into Sheppard, who for some reason is standing in the middle of the hallway. Directly in Rodney's way.

"Colonel," Rodney says in surprise, skidding to a halt just before he makes bodily contact.

Sheppard grins. "Hiya, Rodney." He doesn't move.

"So, how are you feeling?" asks Rodney after a puzzled moment.

"I'm feeling pretty darn good. How about you?"

"I'm fine, there's no reason why I wouldn't be. I wasn't the one exposed to the retrovirus." Rodney eyes Sheppard skeptically. He seems a little too...something. Jittery, maybe. As if he had had too much coffee. "Shouldn't you be resting?"

"No." Sheppard makes it sound like it was a ridiculous suggestion.

"Okay, then." Rodney steps back, because if Sheppard isn't going to move, he's going to have to go around him.

It's really kind of weird. Especially when Sheppard steps toward him, getting even more in the way.

"Excuse me?" Rodney asks, not very politely. Sheppard is taking up the entire width of the hallway, which really should not have been possible. "I have a lab to get to?"

He tries again to step around Sheppard, but once again Sheppard moves with him again, blocking him with an amused expression as if this is the best game ever.

"Very funny, Colonel."

"It is funny, isn't it?" Sheppard cocks his head to one side, watching Rodney's face. His eyes are a little too bright. "Extremely funny."

Rodney glimpses a bluish scar on the inside of Sheppard's arm. He thought the wound had healed. "Is there something you want?" he finally asks.

"Yes Rodney, there is."

Rodney's face grows hot. He's sure Sheppard didn't meant to sound like that, but Sheppard's voice had gone all low and suggestions and it did all sorts of wrong things to his insides. Embarrassed, Rodney looks away, or at least tries to, but his eyes end up Sheppard's chest and the fascinatingly tight stretch of his tee-shirt. "What, then?"

Sheppard advances on him.

Rodney gets a little scared. Which is ridiculous--this is Sheppard, for god's sake. Still, he takes a step back. "Okay, you're acting really weird. Really, really weird."

Sheppard simply grins.

Rodney recoils. Sheppard is now officially scary. It's not his usual smart-assed grin, the kind that comes from a shared joke, or even from a joke at Rodney's expense. It's something all together different. Cold. Cold enough to send a chill through his body.

Worried, Rodney reaches up to activate his earpiece.

Sheppard gets there first, snatching it from Rodney's ear and tossing it aside with a flick of his wrist. "I don't think you want to do that." He moves closer.

"On the contrary," Rodney says, his voice wavering only a little. "I think I do. Even more now than before." He takes another step back, looking to see where the radio fell.

Sheppard moves faster than a normal human should. Rodney is spun around and shoved against the wall, one arm twisted behind his back and his world becomes filled with sudden pain.

"Ow, Sheppard, what the hell--let go of me. That hurts!"

"You know, I figure you for a sweet fuck, Rodney."

Dumbfounded, Rodney goes still, heart pounding so hard it feels like it's about to fly out of his chest. "What?" he finally manages.

"Oh sure, you'd bitch and complain, but in the end, you'd beg me for more." Sheppard's voice is silky, his fingers like iron around Rodney's wrist. "Am I right here?"

Wrong, wrong, wrong, this is all wrong and Rodney can't even speak. He presses his forehead to the wall and tries to think through his panic but he's in a deserted hallway with a not-right Sheppard breathing in his ear and his shoulder hurts like hell.

"I could bend you over a table and nail your ass," Sheppard continues, "And you'd beg like a dog."

Rodney finds his voice. "No, see that's where you're wrong," he lies.

Sheppard doesn't seem to hear him. "Yeah, I'll bet that's what you would do," as if he's talking to himself. His whiskers scrape against Rodney's neck as he chuckles, but at least he loosens his grip on Rodney's arm.

He's practically draped over Rodney at this point and his cock is pushing against Rodney's ass and his hips are moving obscenely. Rodney makes a desperate noise--he doesn't want to be turned on by this but he is, it's hot and wrong and scary and since when did scary sex become of his things?

"Listen, Sheppard--Colonel, stop this, right now," Rodney says, trying for defiant and failing miserably.

"No." He's insolent now, reaching around with his free hand to grope Rodney's crotch.

Rodney struggles because Sheppard doesn't need to know what's going on there, but Sheppard's grip remains firm on his wrist all he gets for his troubles is more pain radiating through his shoulder. "Ow, damn it--"

"Oh, yeah," Sheppard says as his hand closes over Rodney's cock. "You want it, all right."

"No, no, no, no, no," Rodney babbles, mortified as his cock springs to full hardness and Sheppard is rubbing him and it's perversely good. "See, I'm more the romantic type, so let's say you bring me flowers and we'll have dinner and talk about it? Not that I don't appreciate a good fondling in a hallway, but somehow I don't think you're feeling quite yourself right now."

Sheppard releases Rodney's arm.

"Thank you." Rodney nearly sobs with relief, cradling his aching arm against his chest.

Then Sheppard yanks on his hips, pulling him away from the wall. Flailing, Rodney falls forward. He catches himself, palms slapped flat against the wall, only to realize Sheppard's hands are at the waistband of his pants, unfastening them.

"Stop it," Rodney says, jerking away. He turns around and shoves at Sheppard's hands. Sheppard grabs his shirt and Rodney expects the worst--some form of violence, which would almost be a relief, but Sheppard kisses him instead. Too shocked to resist, Rodney's hands go the Sheppard's shoulders. Sheppard's mouth is hot and insistent and wonderful and maybe Rodney kisses Sheppard back, but when Sheppard's hands reach down into his pants and onto his naked ass Rodney is startled into action and tries to push Sheppard away.

"Wait, we need to stop a second and talk about this--"

Sheppard shakes his head and yanks Rodney closer. "No, we don't." He pushes one finger down between Rodney's cheeks.

Rodney gives in completely to the panic. "Okay, that? Don't do that." He's sort of crushed against Sheppard's chest and his cock is hard and he thinks about John using him and fucking him and his chest goes tight. It's hard to breathe and its harder to convince himself that it wouldn't be a good idea. "This isn't you, but you've got to be in there somewhere--John?"

Sheppard makes a low noise and sinks his teeth into Rodney neck, not enough to do damage, but more like a warning of the damage he could do if he wanted it and it's fucking hot. Then he shoves a thigh between Rodney's legs, cock grinding against Rodney's thigh and things get even better or worse and Rodney can't figure out which it is and he's not sure he cares anymore. He just lets Sheppard do it.

"Colonel," he finally says, and Sheppard bites his neck again and god, he thinks he might come just from that. "I know this isn't what you really want, all right?"

Sheppard works a finger partially inside of him. It's dry and it hurts and it is shamefully good.

Rodney whispers, "Don't do this. Please?"

To his surprise Sheppard jerks back, head cocked to one side, eyes distant, as if listening to a faraway sound. His eyes--his yellow-tinged eyes-- narrow.

"Rodney?" Sheppard blinks at him, looking horrified and sick. "Oh god."

"Colonel?"

Sheppard flinches, then yanks his hand out of Rodney's pants, letting go so suddenly that Rodney falls back against the wall. He looks down the hall, and Rodney hears them now, too. A second later two marines round a turn and appear in the hallway. They spot Sheppard and trot toward him.

"I was wondering how long it would take you two to find me," Sheppard says with an easy grin, and the real Sheppard is gone again, just like that. "I just needed to have a word with Rodney here."

Rodney hikes his pants up and swallows nervously. He's relieved and disappointed and appalled by his disappointment. "Yes, yes, we're all through." Rodney waves a hand, hoping nobody notices his condition but the marines' attention, thank god, remain focused on Sheppard.

The marines nod and motion for Sheppard to come with them. Sheppard goes along without resistance. "Catch you later, Rodney," Sheppard calls over his shoulder. "I enjoyed our little chat."

Rodney flees to the nearest bathroom, stumbles into a stall and jerks off with a shaky hand.

Sometimes, he truly disgusts himself.

***


























Warning: Hints of Non-Con.

[identity profile] lilysaid.livejournal.com 2006-09-26 02:05 am (UTC)(link)
Conversion had several aspects I like to see in fic, and this is one of my favorites, that dangerous Sheppard who struggles with losing himself to the beast, or whatever you want to call it. Anyway, I enjoyed this very much. :)

[identity profile] thegrrrl2002.livejournal.com 2006-09-27 01:18 am (UTC)(link)
Thank you! I loved seeing Sheppard all edgy and out of control in the ep, I thought JF did a fantastic job with it. And it was fun to play with that aspect of the ep in fic. *g* I'm glad you enjoyed!

[identity profile] tex.livejournal.com 2006-09-26 02:14 am (UTC)(link)
Damn. I understand Rodney's conflict because I had some, too - this was disturbing and smoking hot. If I had my way, I'd like to see what happens when John recovers. But at any rate, well done.

[identity profile] thegrrrl2002.livejournal.com 2006-09-27 01:21 am (UTC)(link)
Thank you! I'm glad the fic worked. It's a bit of a change for me and I didn't want to cross the line into icky...just skirt the edge of pervy, I guess.

I think there's some awkward and embarrassed moments in their future. But they work it out. *g*

[identity profile] mcalex22.livejournal.com 2006-09-26 02:24 am (UTC)(link)
Firstly, I'm sure I've already told you this - but that Rodney icon just looks yummy. Those quivering lips...

Secondly, I liked this story. It borders on non-con I guess because Rodney himself partially wants what Sheppard is doing. Like Tx_Tart, I'd be curious to see the aftermath of this, if you ever write one.

The story is damn hot :)

[identity profile] thegrrrl2002.livejournal.com 2006-09-27 01:22 am (UTC)(link)
Aw, thank you re: the icon. It's an old one, maybe even from "The Storm", but I love Rodney's expression in it, too.

I'm so glad you liked the fic--I wasn't quite sure how to categorize it, because yeah, almost non-con, but not quite. If Rodney really wanted to get away, he could have.

I could understand his dilemma completely.

[identity profile] thepouncer.livejournal.com 2006-09-26 02:30 am (UTC)(link)
*faints*

*revives*

Oh wow, so hot and so perfectly *Rodney* in the voice - the bit about a romantic dinner? I could hear David Hewlett saying the line. And a totally out of control Sheppard is far too hot for my own good. I should be ashamed, really, but I enjoyed this too much.

[identity profile] thegrrrl2002.livejournal.com 2006-09-27 01:24 am (UTC)(link)
Hee! I say lets all jettison the shame and be happily pervy. And thank you, I really appreciate the compliment, I'm so glad Rodney sounded like Rodney.

[identity profile] melagan.livejournal.com 2006-09-26 02:35 am (UTC)(link)
This works very well. I love Conversion fic to begin with and would have loved to seen this missing scene.


(Gero edges closer and closer to giving me what I want. What a good boy)

[identity profile] thegrrrl2002.livejournal.com 2006-09-27 01:25 am (UTC)(link)
Thank you! I would have loved to have seen something like this, too. *g* Although the way this season is going, John and Rodney will be making out on-screen by the 19th ep. *g*
ext_1637: (john bondage determined by icon_ascentio)

[identity profile] wickedwords.livejournal.com 2006-09-26 03:50 am (UTC)(link)
oh, wow. It's been awhile since I read something that hung out in the quasi-grey area of consent. It's hot and disturbing at the same time.

[identity profile] thegrrrl2002.livejournal.com 2006-09-27 01:26 am (UTC)(link)
Thank you--I was trying to avoid going too far into the non-con side of things--I'm glad it worked.
ext_8600: (Rodney - Daydream wishes)

[identity profile] reedfem.livejournal.com 2006-09-26 04:05 am (UTC)(link)
Ooooh, Grrrl, look what you've done with the place.

A little dark, but very nice.

[identity profile] thegrrrl2002.livejournal.com 2006-09-27 01:27 am (UTC)(link)
LOL, thank you! I'm glad you liked it. It's a bit of a change for me, but it was naughtily fun to write.

[identity profile] porntestpilot.livejournal.com 2006-09-26 04:18 am (UTC)(link)
//squeaks// I am totally okay with this. omg.

[identity profile] thegrrrl2002.livejournal.com 2006-09-27 01:27 am (UTC)(link)
LOL, I'm glad! Thank you. *g*

[identity profile] seikaitsukimizu.livejournal.com 2006-09-26 07:06 am (UTC)(link)
I do love Sheppard as he falls into the darkness (or rather, gives in to his base instincts). A disturbing, yet hot piece. Well done!

[identity profile] thegrrrl2002.livejournal.com 2006-09-27 01:28 am (UTC)(link)
Dark Sheppard is rather fun, isn't he? *g* I'm glad you enjoyed, thank you very much!
ext_1771: Joe Flanigan looking A-Dorable. (rodney heights - sga)

[identity profile] monanotlisa.livejournal.com 2006-09-26 07:33 am (UTC)(link)
Creepy but very much in line with canon. And ah, conflicted Rodney, struggling Sheppard: Never not good.

[identity profile] thegrrrl2002.livejournal.com 2006-09-27 01:28 am (UTC)(link)
*g* Thank you! I'm glad the fic worked.

Flaming panties seal of approval

[identity profile] maryavatar.livejournal.com 2006-09-26 08:28 am (UTC)(link)
Nnnnng! Riv and I share that particular kink, and I so happy you wrote that for her :)

Re: Flaming panties seal of approval

[identity profile] thegrrrl2002.livejournal.com 2006-09-27 01:29 am (UTC)(link)
Ooooh, I've achieved flaming panties!! ::is proud::

Yay!

[identity profile] feather-autant.livejournal.com 2006-09-26 08:31 am (UTC)(link)
His whiskers scrape against Rodney's neck as he chuckles,

::shivers:: I loved this! It's like the conversion gave John permission to give into that part of himself that wanted Rodney, and Rodney, even though he can't give in, lets John know what he wants, too.

I've never been opposed to a little bit of rough with my porn. :)

[identity profile] thegrrrl2002.livejournal.com 2006-09-27 01:30 am (UTC)(link)
*g* Thank you sweetie! I'm glad the fic worked for you. It was fun to write, in a pervy kind of way. I like when the boys get a little rough, too.

[identity profile] sffan.livejournal.com 2006-09-26 10:56 am (UTC)(link)
I think they (*waves hand at previous comments*) pretty much covered why I really enjoyed this fic. So, I'll just say "wooo! good fic" and move along *g*

[identity profile] thegrrrl2002.livejournal.com 2006-09-27 01:30 am (UTC)(link)
LOL, thank you! I'm glad you enjoyed it.
ext_979: (sheppard)

[identity profile] saba1789.livejournal.com 2006-09-26 01:52 pm (UTC)(link)
Mmmh, that was very nice. Thanks for writing and sharing this :-) .

[identity profile] thegrrrl2002.livejournal.com 2006-09-27 01:30 am (UTC)(link)
Thank you muchly! *g*
trobadora: (locked inside my head by skroberts)

[personal profile] trobadora 2006-09-26 02:18 pm (UTC)(link)
Thank you thank you thank you! Do you know how long I've been waiting for a story like this? After Conversion, I was sure there'd be ten thousand, but inconceivably, there weren't.

I think I love you.

[identity profile] thegrrrl2002.livejournal.com 2006-09-27 01:32 am (UTC)(link)
::basks in the love::

Thank you! I'm glad the fic worked. And you're so right, there should have been many, many, many such fics.

I mean, between this ep, and enzymed-up Rodney of "Lost Boys", there's fodder for all kinds of pervy things.

(no subject)

[personal profile] trobadora - 2006-09-27 07:43 (UTC) - Expand

[identity profile] nel-ani.livejournal.com 2006-09-26 10:57 pm (UTC)(link)
OMG. Since you said that it was a mild warning, I didn't think that anything would really happen, but you *still* had me nervous. Sequel? Is somebody else having a birthday soon?

[identity profile] thegrrrl2002.livejournal.com 2006-09-27 01:33 am (UTC)(link)
Oooh, yay, made you nervous! I didn't want to take it too far, but enough to get Rodney worked up. In all kinds of ways.

Thank you!

I'm not sure about a sequel, although I know after the awkwardness and embarrassement, there's going to be some lovin' *g*

[identity profile] rivier.livejournal.com 2006-09-27 12:22 am (UTC)(link)
Perfect! Dirty and wrong and juuuust fine by me. Poor Rodney, being used to gratify my kinks (and John's) like that. I had to go away and start thinking of What Happens Next, all the embarrassment and awkwardness and misunderstanding and DOOM! (and maybe finally something else).

That was a truly delicious birthday present! I'm such a perv. Thank you sweetheart. I feel quietly, guiltly, furtively happy.

[identity profile] rivier.livejournal.com 2006-09-27 12:26 am (UTC)(link)
Also score the win for Rodney's desperate use of the J word under duress. Yum. Possibly my second biggest SGA kink...

[identity profile] adafrog.livejournal.com 2006-09-27 01:46 am (UTC)(link)
Wow, this was perfectly written. I'd love to see the fallout for this.

[identity profile] thegrrrl2002.livejournal.com 2006-09-29 02:47 pm (UTC)(link)
Thank you!

I think there would a great deal of awkwardness after this, but somehow they'd manage to work it out. *g*

[identity profile] stillwaters11.livejournal.com 2006-09-27 01:59 am (UTC)(link)
I'll echo the "disturbing and hot" comments others have given. I usually shy away from non-con, but this one had me riveted. Wow.

[identity profile] thegrrrl2002.livejournal.com 2006-09-29 02:49 pm (UTC)(link)
Thank you! I'm glad this worked-little hints of non-con is usually enough for me, too, and I didn't want to take this one too far.

[identity profile] spiritus-asper.livejournal.com 2006-09-27 03:54 am (UTC)(link)
How I so love dark John - yum. Those scenes in Conversion where he gets that chilly edge to him just had me spinning and your fic captured that edge so well. And a deliciously conflicted Rodney to go with naughty Johnny? So great - Thanks!

[identity profile] thegrrrl2002.livejournal.com 2006-09-29 02:49 pm (UTC)(link)
Thank you! I loved John in those scenes, too--a little agitated, a little cold, and whoa, he was hot. *g*

[identity profile] kimberlite.livejournal.com 2006-09-27 04:09 am (UTC)(link)
Guh! Loved how you flirted with crossing the line into non-con. John losing control is surprisingly hot, and Rodney wanting/not wanting John this way seems quite possible. Very nicely done. :)

[identity profile] thegrrrl2002.livejournal.com 2006-09-29 02:50 pm (UTC)(link)
Thank you! I'm glad the fic worked. *g*

[identity profile] no-detective.livejournal.com 2006-09-27 06:50 am (UTC)(link)
Oh, GUH. The good kind of dark. Me likey.

[identity profile] thegrrrl2002.livejournal.com 2006-09-29 02:50 pm (UTC)(link)
Yay! I'm glad. *g*
sandrine: (computer (McShep))

[personal profile] sandrine 2006-09-27 06:05 pm (UTC)(link)
Guh.

*picks herself up from the floor and fans herself until she's somewhat coherent again*

That was scorching hot! I've been waiting for a missing scene from 'Conversion', McShep style, since I first saw the episode, and this is pretty much exactly what I'd be hoping for. Thank you so much for writing this! :)

[identity profile] thegrrrl2002.livejournal.com 2006-09-29 02:51 pm (UTC)(link)
You're very welcome! And I agree, it needed to be written. So much opportunity for naughtiness. *g*
ext_970: (have you seen?)

[identity profile] tazzles.livejournal.com 2006-09-28 10:25 am (UTC)(link)
This is kinda hot, yet kinda scary. I quite enjoy these fics ('Conversion' with John being the sexual predator).
Really nicely done. It'd be interesting to see how your John reacts to this post recovery.

[identity profile] thegrrrl2002.livejournal.com 2006-09-29 02:52 pm (UTC)(link)
Thank you, I'm glad you liked! I think John and Rodney are going to have some awkward moments in their future, most definitely.

But they'll work it out. *g*
intermezzo: (Default)

[personal profile] intermezzo 2006-09-28 10:19 pm (UTC)(link)
OMG, you can't stop there!!! *pouts* I'd like to read about the awkward apology or lack thereof (I can't really see J finding the words for that) and about the whole aftermath.

This John is scary, dangerous and so very IC (as far as Conversion goes, that is) and yes, also hot...now, that's disturbing!

BTW, very nice missing scene. Well done!

[identity profile] thegrrrl2002.livejournal.com 2006-09-29 02:53 pm (UTC)(link)
Thank you very much!

I think John does manage to apologize, and Rodney is still mortified, but somehow they work it out. *g*

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